I'M A FOOL

Ape-ape pon bole...

Okay... Actually this post is more about my confession as a tiny human in this Allah's created earth.

I have a crush with someone. My colleague as the matter of fact. Not love in the first sight, but I'm the kind of person who can read people's attitude and personality.  Whenever I tells other people what types of person they are, they will give me this "I'm not believing you" look. Heck, they even called me a negative thinker. But the person that I've crushed in have somewhat like a fully responsible manly kind personality. Yes, he's not that good looking, not that muscular kind of guy, not even that tall, but still he have some kind of aura that I don't know why attract me to be sort of in love with him.

But he's already went to US coz he got a better job offer there. A week before he left, me and all my co-workers went to cinema to watch a movie titled "LOVE, ROSIE.". I've cried a lot coz its remind me of my late father and also my crush whom will soon leave Malaysia for better life. I'll miss him so much...

 

After he left for US, I've cried for almost a week. I'm not even tell him about my feelings to him.
I keep sending message to him asking how his life there, how's your new work?, and various stupid questions. But not once I ever tell him that I like him.

And I've thinking that I've done a very stupid things...

I'M A FOOL FOR KEPT THINKING FOR SOMEONE THAT PROBABLY NOT EVEN BOTHER TO REMEMBER OR THINK ABOUT ME.

I'M A FOOL FOR FORGOTTEN ABOUT MY ONE AND ONLY ALLAH, BUT ALLAH ALWAYS REMEMBERS ME.

I'M A FOOL FOR LOVE SOMEONE THAT WON'T LOVE ME BACK.

I'M A FOOL FOR BEING A FOOL.

I've always thought that someday he will realize about how I always praying for his safety, health, and his everyday life.

But still, who will ever fall in love with a chubs like me and have the guts to confess to me upfront.

JODOH ITU DI ADALAH RAHSIA ALLAH. TERPULANG PADA KITA UNTUK BERUSAHA MENCARINYA.

My Experience as a Freelance Makeup Artist So Far...

  Tahun 2014 ni tahun aku bergerak aktif sebagai Beautician aka Makeup Artist. Tapi most experience yang aku dapat sepanjang aku bergelar Makeup Artist adalah ditipu atau dijatuhkan oleh kawan sendiri.

Klik sini untuk ALBUM PENUH

Kes 1 - Member aku nak kahwin, aku adalah makeup artist yang bergerak secara bebas. Aku tak ade butik ataupun pakej penuh pengantin. Yang aku offer hanyalah makeup untuk any occasion sahaja. Member aku mintak harga yang sangat tak masuk akal untuk perkhidmatan aku. RM50 untuk makeup bersanding.  Dengan segala hormatnye aku cakap yang aku boleh je makeup die dengan harga RM50. Tapi barang pun barang yang setara dengannye je la. Aku takkan gune barang mahal untuk makeup die. But she still insisted to use the expensive thing. Aku cakap  tak boleh. Good luck dalam mencari makeup artist lain yang boleh makeup ko dengan harga tu. Then suddenly I've heard that she use a RM400 price makeup service from this quite senior makeup artist. I said like WTF was she trying to do to me before???? Memang la die kawan yang akan menjatuhkan kawan sendiri.  My first lesson.

Kes 2 - Aku dipanggil untuk buat makeup studio. Tapi sangat last minute. Esoknye nak service, malam baru cakap. Pukul 10 lebih pulak tu. But as a PROFESSIONAL MAKEUP ARTIST, I just layan client aku sebaik-baiknye. Tapi bila aku tanya satu soalan, masa yang diambil untuk jawab soalan tu sangat F***ing lame. Aku mesej malam, esok pagi baru jawab. Please be professional, will ya? Then, bile aku da siap-siap nak ke lokasi, aku dah siap mintak bos nak masuk lambat lagi, she's cancelled the appointment. WTF???? Aku da OTW kot.... Tapi aku tak nak dipandang sebagai cepat melenting, aku jawab dengan nada yang elok. Takpe la. Pada aku, ini experience. Maybe orang lain cakap aku dianiaya, kalau betul aku dianiaya, takpe lah. Allah je yang balas. Rezeki ade dimana-mana. Cuma usaha untuk cari rezeki yang halal tu yang akan membezakan banyak sikitnye rezeki yang kite akan dapat.

**NASIB BAIK AKU TAK MINTAK CUTI KAT BOS, KALAU TAK SIA-SIA JE KENA POTONG GAJI....**

LESSON LEARNT!!!

DESAS DESUS HARI INI

Ape-ape pon bole...

I've been stalked someone's IG for about 2 months now(Apologize for that). I knew about her when I watch her on YouTube.
At first when I saw her IG, I'd think, she's so lucky because she came from a wealthy family. Then, after I saw her picture which were really daring for a girl with a religion of Islam stated on her Malaysian IC, I felt so sorry and pity. Not for her, but, for her late father. For every single skin that she showed for public view.... I feel sorry for her mother too, because she's the one who encouraged her daughter to dress as it could pleased people's eyes. I hope one day she will be a better Muslim and try to cover her body fully.

Actually that girl is not a bitch or anything, and I really thinks that she's a nice and kind-hearted person. It's only her outfit  that bothered me so much I guess. Sorry for the word....huhuuu.....

She dressed exactly like this (Only for example. Miley, no offense)

CERITA INI TIADA KENA-MENGENA DENGAN YANG HIDUP ATAUPUN YANG TELAH MENINGGAL DUNIA

Goodbye 2013, Hey 2014... Things keep going on...

14 Oct 2013,

My last paper for my final exam in my final year... I'm seriously thinking of pursuing my study again.  But I have my family to take care of, so....

20 Oct 2013,

Aku menjadi penganggur terhormat yang berkerjaya sebagai penggoyang kaki dan penghabis beras atok aku (aku duduk rumah atok).  Sedang aku khusyuk melayari FB job vacancies group, aku ternampak satu tawaran hebat dengan gaji yang lumayan serta kemudahan si tempat kerja yang sangat menarik perhatian aku... **KARAOKE ROOM IS PROVIDED**  Kepantangan aku adalah perkataan karaoke, memang tidak la aku nak lepaskan peluang ni.  Jadi aku cepat2 contact Miss C, seriously memang excited... konon laa... Gaji <2k, sapo la yang tak ter ' jolok' mata tengok. aku dipanggil untuk pergi interview

28 Oct 2013,

I've passed my interview session and started my work on 28th.  Tapi aku sebenarnya tak ready langsung untuk handle stress terlampau....

Member2 tempat keje, international ko...

1st Jan 2014,

Atuk saudara aku, Ramlan bin Buang menghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir, aku sentap, 2 hari aku tak pergi kerja, ambik MC.  Sampailah aku terfikir yang kerja ni bukan untuk aku.  

6 Jan 2014,

Hari ini menjadi hari terakhir aku sebagai pegawai perkhidmatan pelanggan di Syarikat telekomunikasi Singapura.  Aku dah nekad nak berhenti, I cannot take another pressure.  So after I solved all my pending cases, I walked out form the company and decided not to step my foot in this company again.  For 2 months I've worked here with no no attendance error.... **nampak sangat la manjanya aku ni**

7 Jan 2014 till present,

Bermula semula hari aku sebagai penganggur terhormat.  :P  Makcik aku bengang je tengok aku relaks je hari2...huhu.... Don't worry, I have my own plan.... **still being written**

22 Jan 2014,

Still tanam anggur....